Luhv Junkie....

So I've come to realize that I'm addicted to love. I've tried hiding from it, running from it, denying it... nothing works. I think some people in this world really vibe off of love. Like modern day hippies or something. Like idk I've tried the player thing and the faithful in love thing then the single "i don't need a man" thing. i enjoyed each at the time but when the lights go out and I'm alone with time to think to myself, i realize that i am addicted to love. I constantly find myself falling for somebody. I'm starting to see that the harder i try to fight it, the easier it is to catch feelings. I sorta lost track of where i was going with this blog though. lol i answered the phone and started rambling about random things with my bestie so i totally jumped outside of my mind for a moment. All i know is I'll be glad when love decides to settle on somebody and join us together. Preferably my taurus ;) Lol ok let me stop. Well no i guess i can continue now that I'm off the phone. Plus, saying the taurus thing brought another point. I really have to get this off my chest. I am really feeling this guy I'm talking to right now. Like i want us to be official but right now isn't really the best time to bring this up. He's not really himself lately but for verrrry understandable reason. I just have all these feelings and emotions that need to be told and i have to just keep quiet. I don't want to pressure him or make him feel uncomfortable especially because we discussed our terms when we first started catching feelings for one another. So yea it's not really love but I'm infatuated with this boy and its starting to kill me to think he doesn't really know. Then the fear of things to come after this deep convo I'm trying to have is really disturbing too. Ugh anyways I'm on the phone with my fake baby mama lol listening to her drama after i just told her all my drama. Having girl talk you know how that goes. Adios until next time....