Luhv Junkie....

So I've come to realize that I'm addicted to love. I've tried hiding from it, running from it, denying it... nothing works. I think some people in this world really vibe off of love. Like modern day hippies or something. Like idk I've tried the player thing and the faithful in love thing then the single "i don't need a man" thing. i enjoyed each at the time but when the lights go out and I'm alone with time to think to myself, i realize that i am addicted to love. I constantly find myself falling for somebody. I'm starting to see that the harder i try to fight it, the easier it is to catch feelings. I sorta lost track of where i was going with this blog though. lol i answered the phone and started rambling about random things with my bestie so i totally jumped outside of my mind for a moment. All i know is I'll be glad when love decides to settle on somebody and join us together. Preferably my taurus ;) Lol ok let me stop. Well no i guess i can continue now that I'm off the phone. Plus, saying the taurus thing brought another point. I really have to get this off my chest. I am really feeling this guy I'm talking to right now. Like i want us to be official but right now isn't really the best time to bring this up. He's not really himself lately but for verrrry understandable reason. I just have all these feelings and emotions that need to be told and i have to just keep quiet. I don't want to pressure him or make him feel uncomfortable especially because we discussed our terms when we first started catching feelings for one another. So yea it's not really love but I'm infatuated with this boy and its starting to kill me to think he doesn't really know. Then the fear of things to come after this deep convo I'm trying to have is really disturbing too. Ugh anyways I'm on the phone with my fake baby mama lol listening to her drama after i just told her all my drama. Having girl talk you know how that goes. Adios until next time....

Long time no blog....

Man..... it has really been F O R E V E R since I've even been on blogger.com let alone actually blog something. So much has happened since I've last blogged. I'm a NoHo resident in student housing w| 2 roommates. Still doing the graphic design thing at Ai - Hollywood. In my 5th quarter. 7 more until my bachelor's |yay..!}. Still single, thought i found something great but as of lately I'm not too sure. But i never stay down so with that being said I'll go ahead and randomly choose tonight's topic.



So it's Valentines Day, technically |it's currently 1:30am| I love this holiday probably as much as Christmas, Halloween, && my b'day. But the past 2 years, 09 and 2010, haven't been so hot for me. Then again who's to say that they weren't good just because i didn't have an actual Valentine.? Last year i had a bf but he went on a family trip so i was stuck alone. However, i did spend time w| my siblings and actually had a blast. This year I'm sort of talking to someone but i didn't hear from him last night or tonight so tomorrow, er... later today doesn't look very promising as far as romance goes. But does v'day have to be romantic.? It's possible that this is what our society wants us to believe. Don't get me wrong... I'm not the bitter type to try ad make v'day all about something other than the usual thing. I'm all about love and the mushy stuff, but maybe v'day doesn't have to be all about that every year. I know when I'm w| someone who i share that special bond w|, everyday is like v'day. I've had more romantic encounters on a Wednesday than i have had on most of my v'day dates. So maybe v'day is just a reminder... like an anti-hatred day. Making all of us a little more aware of love no matter who we're sharing it w| whether its our lover, friend, relative, puppy... whatever. So w| that being said... just enjoy the 14th and make the most of it even if you're alone. Because in all actuality you're not the only one alone... making no one truly alone for v'day. That's it for now tho... I'm going to try to get back on my blog game tho. Adios.!