Ehh..Matters of the Heart....

So I'm thinking. A lot. Lately more so about my love life, er lack of actually. Lol. So yea like lately I've been chilling w.| my exes [there's only 2 don't trip lol] && I've been hoping at least one would realize that we should try again. Pathetic right.? Lol but seriously i just seem to mesh better w.| the 2 of them. One is younger yet he somehow knows exactly what to say at just the right moment. && I'm super comfy around him, i can be myself 100%. Then the other is my age, 2months older but same diff. He does all the right things at the right moments but is sorta quiet. But being around him eases my stress, calms me, makes me feel safe && warm. However there's an awkwardness that i cant quite understand. He almost acts nervous around me, but it cnt be bqus he likes m in the way i want him to. It just doesn't seem like he has those feelings anymore, it's been 2 years since the break up so who can blame him.? But now I've come to the conclusion that my recent activities are not healthy. Spending time w.| them keep me happy at that exact moment && maybe lasts the rest of the day but i want something a tad more long term. It's frustrating bqus i could be missing out on someone trying to stay free in case one of them speak up. The more && more i think of it i realize tho, that I'm going to have to stop this eventually. Maybe not cold turkey but enough to give someone a chance. The problem is... who gets this chance.? I mean there's really no one i see myself deeply involved w.| in the future that I'm speaking to now. Why cant i just find that artsy guy that listens to weird music && loves video games at least half as much as i do.? Like a guy that has the deepest convos && wisdom beyond his years. A best friend, a teacher, a lover, all wrapped into one. A guy that can be my blanket, my tissue, my blunt, my song, or my joke when i need it most. Idk maybe i expect too much...

New Moon stuff....

Super stoked

Alice in Wonderland....

.... all time favorite movie. Ever since i was a kid this movie has been able to snatch my attention from the world && hold it until the ending credits. It's funny how i even laugh at all the same parts from when i was younger. I realize more so now than ever why i love this movie tho. I relate to Alice in so many ways. The daydreaming, the curiosity, && the ability to "give such great advice. but never seem to follow". && there are a lot of double entendres which trip me out every time i catch a new one. But we all know old Walt was not ashamed to add his lil freaky twist to a children' story. Lol. But yea just watch the movie w.| an open mind. Who knows, it just might solve an issue in your life or make you look at things differently, in a good way of course. That's all for now tho, adios

I been meaning to post this for a while....

i've seen more pix, the 'do is growing on me. at first i was like wtf but now its kinda cute. i wouldnt do it but she carries it well.

up at 3am...

I forgot about All Gorwed Up. The o.g Rugrats was way better tho. Anyway, earlier this week i went to a comic store for the 1st time in years. Maybe even a decade. But yea it was sorta liberating. I spent a while hiding that side of me bqus somehow i always end up making friends that i get along with for all practical purposes, but have close to nothing in common with me. However, going to an art school has been the best thing for me socially in a while. Well other than the fact that hours of hw kinda cut my social life short. But i've met some really cool ppl, && some weirdos that make me look like the most boring "normal" person on earth. Anyways, basically, im a lot more comfortable in my skin now than ever. Which brings me to a point i didnt think i had. Why do we allow ourselves to give a crap what ppl think about us.? We were born without them && unless there's some sort of freak group accident God has planned, we're gonna die without them. Acceptance is one of the most wanted thing in this world besides money. If everyone would embrace their differences things would get a lot more interesting.

But on a lighter note, Tommy Pickles just got snaked.! Lol. He had this gf that moved so they broke up. But he felt fine despite what his friends thought. He didnt want to cry or mope around or anythiing. Long story short he pretended to be sad so they'd leave him alone && led them to believe they should bring Rachel, his ex gf to town. But he met this new cuter chick && invited her to the arcade but his crew followed him && both girls showed up. He ended up alone && crying but forreal this time. Thats why iotn involve my friends in relationship issues look what happens. Well Chalk Zone is on && i havent seen this in too long. Rudy Tabooty has the teen Tommy's voice. How cool. =]

Adios.!

I finally did it...

... yep i chopped the crop off. lol

50...

...and he still looks good. But yea, r.i.p Mike.

R.i.P the greatest entertainer of them all....

I know i'm late getting to this but it's better late than never. Man it's crazy how a person you never even met can have such a great impact on your life. I remember being little watching Mike on tv, bein scared of the Thriller video but still watching it everyday on this tape i had. Oh and this Alvin and the Chipmunks video i had called Rockin with the Chipmunks had two clips with MJ in it. Then of course when i heard Black or White i begged my mom for the cd, or was it a tape at that time.? lol anyway, i have always been and always will be a Michael Jackson fan and it hurts to know hes gone. There will never be another like you Mike, you will be missed by many. Rest in peace.




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Embarrassed that i had a crush on this nigga back in the day lmao.

[Thing 2 from Flavor of Love 3 voice] "Whyyyyyy Spec.?" Lmao

cutest video ever

if this doesnt make yu smile or laugh just a little yu are a spawn of satan. lol

omfg r.i.p Dolla i didnt think it was true... ='[

Dolla, whose real name is Roderick Anthony Burton II, was shot in the head about 3:10 p.m. at the Beverly Center, his publicist said. Police later detained a person at the Los Angeles International Airport, said city police spokeswoman Karen Raynar. Further details were not immediately available about the shooting. Dolla, who was based in Atlanta, Georgia, was in Los Angeles recording his debut album. He caught the attention of multiplatinium R&B singer Akon when the then-12-year-old Dolla was performing with friends at showcases around Atlanta. The two collaborated on Dolla's first single, "Who the F--- Is That?" which also featured another high-profile singer, T-Pain. Another Dolla song, "Feelin' Myself," appeared on the soundtrack to the 2006 movie "Step Up." According to his MySpace page, Dolla was born in Chicago, Illinois. His twin sister died at birth because of complications from an enlarged heart. The family moved to Atlanta after Dolla's father committed suicide while he, then 5, and another sister watched from their parents' bed, the Web page said. Dolla began composing rhymes in elementary school and decided to pursue a career in music. Funeral services, which will be held in Atlanta, will be announced later, publicist Sue Vannasing said

SidekickxPhotography ish...

Jus some diff pix i've taken with mi kick 3 && more recently mi kick slide.|Disclaimer|... these do not posess good quality seeing as how sidekicks are lame in the photo taking department. ahaha

LMFAO.! Thats all i can say

ChillxMode

Well i'm off to bed. I thought i'd leave mi audience w.| a taste of mi chill playlist that keeps me in mi zone. hope yu enjoy it. Im bout to enjoy these peanut butter && honey sandwiches =p. lol

Zone`n

SantaMonicaPierxPhotogClass

So we had to capture pix w.| isolation &&/or desolation for pt. 1 then pt. 2 was seeing beauty in everyday objects. Some pix i just took bqus i thought they were the fckn shit. Lol lemme know what yu think.